Less Than ThreeI f a l l .
ZombieOnce upon a time some part of me diedAnd so I buried it without even realizing it was goneBut now it wants to come back to lifeAnd I don’t know how to help it.
Too Distant To Be SeenThe moon caressed my skin as I gingerly peeled it offAnd the sun melted my bones as they were exposedMy muscles- the last shell- deteriorated instantlyAnd the stars ate my soul without another thought.
For Your Eyes OnlyWe used to talk every day, for hours- from dawn til dusk. Until you slipped up- mentioned my name, and they told you I was dead.
Let Me Be ThereI’m not always strongSometimes I’m vulnerable around those I trustSometimes I allow myself to cry, allow myself to break- sometimes I need toBut when you need a break, and when you need to take off your armor to nurse your wounds-Lean on me and I’ll be strong enough for the both of us.
disappearI taught her how to grow a backbone—How to fight the battles that mattered mostHow to say no and goodbye—I taught her how to leave without being noticed—How to fade away day by dayHow to merely cease—&& she used this knowledge against me.
i won't let you be a thiefMy thoracic cavity is like the lobby of an old hotel. In which the hotel only has approximately 13 rooms in all and less than half are available. However, you can see the condition of the rooms from the lobby and you can feel what each has to offer. Yet you have no access other than pressing your forehead against the window and cupping your hands around your head to eliminate the glare. And you’ll see that two or three keys are missing from the key rack, and maybe you’ll wonder who was allowed inside or maybe you’ll not, and you’ll leave.
voicesLast night I dreamtThat I had buttons for eyesAnd they told me I couldn’t cry no more.
Darkness to LastI have trouble swallowing the words youAll too eagerly whisper into my earsSo easily are they saidI can’t help but wonder if this- if us- is a script; one that you have memorizedOne that you have collaborated with others onOne that I was kept in the dark aboutWhere I am merely the clueless actress who is wondering about your lines.
silence will cause the endI’m really very tired of the days that go by without meaning.Where there are too many momentsWhere we would stare blankly at each other; our souls not connecting like they used toAndWhenever you or I would stop the meaningless time to try and questionWhere we went wrongOur tongues began to split apart and French braid themselves intoOne, big, elegant, mess of questions that are to never be asked or answered.
Today My Hands Reek of Doctor Office SoapBecause I frantically washed my hands in the back roomBecause I’m one anxious little fuck when it comes to needles andCrying children in the hallways and rooms where the walls are paper thinBecause I nearly pass out when needles are stuck into my arm several timesBecause no one can ever find a goddamned vein the first timeTrying to calm myself as the doctor comes back in and the first words out of my mouth are“So what are some good anxiety medications these days?”
Speaking Of GhostsI’m on the other side- looking through the glassI’m scared for you- because you’re still waitingBecause you can’t hear my voice telling you to move on and you brush off my pushing hands as the wind.
Love is... complicatedLove is beautiful,And love is terrible.Love makes you smile,And cry in equal measures.Love is comforting,And love is disconcerting.Love gives you wings,Or traps you forever.Love is sometimes sweet,But more often bitter-sweet.Love is holding someone close forever,Or walking awayWith a broken heart.
Lelouch's FarewellImpaled on a sword,With a smile on my face,Glad that no one else,Would have to take this place.Killed by my best friend,It's the way it had to end,It was all for you dear sis,Some day your heart will mend.Blood covered hand,This is my final hour,Take this blessing my friend,Lend a healing world your power.I cannot be afraid,To be the world's saviour,My body starts to fall,And I'm shaken to the core.One life for millions,What else could I do?I destroyed the world for you sis,And created it anew...
Sun and MoonSun said,"My sky is bright."Moon said,"My sky is night."Sun said,"I give the peopleTheir everyday life."Moon said,"I watch them sleep,Their dreams and strife."Sun said,"You know we are oppositesYou and I."Moon said,"That's trueBut I'm glad we share this sky."
FakeI wish I could smileWithout feeling the guilt ofFaking happiness
Hell...I remember onceA good friend told me to go to Hell.I remember her startled stare,As I let out a maniacal laughAnd replied-"Don't you see, I'm already there!"
No one's perfectNo one's perfect honey.Some people make the same mistakesOver and over.No one's perfect honey.It's funnyI didn't realise I was just no one.
How To Live A Happy Life1. Stop searching for all the problems, and start looking for the awesome things in life.2. There's always an endless supply of things to be stressed about. Don't waste your time on them. Just let them go.3. Be happy for others who are happy or successful, even if you're jealous of them.4. Accept that life isn't perfect.5. Believe that you are wonderful and beautiful; love yourself just the way you are.6. The quickest way to help yourself is to help others.7. Be open to other/new possibilities.8. Listen to what others have to say.9. Always think of at least one positive thought in every situation.10. Reslove conflicts with gentleness, or you'll just be adding to the fuel.11. Don't use up your energy fighting battles; use it for doing things you enjoy.12. Life is one mistake after another, so don't be too hard on yourself.13. Be nice to the people who need someone to be nice to them.14. Be patient when you're in a bad mood. Wait for the good mood to come back again.15. Rel
Were just friends, right?We are just friends, right?Right, of course right,Since we were ten, hand wrestling till you let me win,Boy and girl, just being friends and nothing more,But
why do I want more?Is that greedy?To just want one kiss?One hug?Why do I rush to school too anxious to wait for the bus?At lunch I want to sit with you all the time.Is that weird?How bout' just thinking your cute?Yes? Well I can't help it!I can't stop looking at you,I mean
look at you!Is it greedy to want you all for myself?How bout' if I want to just hold your hand?While you talk, all I do is watch your mouth and wonder how it tastes.Can't I have one little kiss?And maybe one big hug?Would you freak if I asked?Of course you would
We are just good friends.Boy and girl, nothing more.You don't love me and I do love you
Wait! I mean don't!
or do I?©SABRINA628
Coeur de GlaceThe rain fell heavily on meThough it was but a drizzle.His eyes shone,But not because of the rain,He trembled,But not from the cold.My thoughts dissolved into fear.Why was I doing this?Was I that scared?Scared of loving?Scared of being loved?I bit back the tearsTilting my head away from his gaze.The words were spoken,As though by another.My chest hurt.I left him in the rain,With the thing I called a heart.The walls spun,I collapsed unable to breathe, to thinkUnable to stop the broken criesSlipping from my frozen lips,As I curled in a ballWaiting for it to end.Wondering how I could ever be loved.With a heart made of ice...
The Fake Smile MaskI, am one of the many,One of the mask wearers.A fake smile scrawled across my face,Chipping and fraying atIts very seams.Go ahead, ask me if I am alright,For not wanting to bore you with my problems,And knowing no one can solve them,I will slip my fake smile mask on once more,Nod along in pleasure and continueTo store my secrets in a corked bottle,One in which I may throw out to sea someday.So try and read my emotions,They may be real or fake,I've had years of practice,And my truth may be quite hard to take.
Key to my heartMy heart was always kept under lockBut the key wasn't held by meI wasn't even aware there was one.Until it was handed to me.The walls were built around meTo keep people awayTo stop anyone from getting closeSo how did you pass through them?And how did I take so long to notice?How did you melt the iceSurrounding my fragile heart?Or break the chains holding it tight.I was so afraid,That you had gotten so closeForgive me my fearsMy doubtsMy cold words.I see nowHow mistaken I was.If you keep your heart locked upYou might miss the one to set you free.My heart was always kept under lockBut the key wasn't held by meI wasn't even aware there was one.Until it was handed to me.My heart is yours.For you-My love,My life,Have always held the key.
ManiaMania I have a lot of fears.You know the cliché,Afraid of being alone,Afraid of being forgotten,But I’m already aloneAnd they can’t help but not forget you-But this,And that,And everything in-between.I feel like this doesn’t make sense. But I’m afraid my paranoia,Will seep through my eyelids,As bands of streaking colors—Every color that refuses to mix well.Turquoise, brown green,Burnt orange and lilac pink.I’m afraid I’m in too deepOf the waters of another human—Not afraid of intimacy,But the thought of being so open,That honestly worries me.And I’m afraid I’ll spiral out of controlAnd way too into love.Just to be pushed out.And I’m afraid I’m too paranoidAbout being too paranoid.So caught up with not being so,I am too much. I’m so afraid of a back stabbing,That I’m worried about being shotFrom the front. I’m afraid of being afraid,An
Your Words Aren't Pretty Like They Used To BeOnce upon a time-He made me feel safe&&She made me feel whole&&He made me feel okay&&She made me feel loved&&I believed them&&It hurt so badlyBecause they lied.